Didn't Go As Planned

So when I got to school today there's this small tv where you can check which class room you're gonna be in and passing by I noticed that this one boy was going to be in the same room where I had my first class (after us ofc) so I had butterflies in my stomach and waited the whole day hoping that I'd see him or just catch a glimpse of him but no :(
When we had a break the door was closed and when our day was over (our lessons ended the same time) they had already left and the classroom was empty.

A part of me know's he's not the guy for me (not really sure I mean that..)  and I should just give up (and in a way I have) .

Then I have this guy who I've had a crush on for over a year now, one of the major reasons nothing happened between us was that he was that after he had finished school he'd move back to his hometown and I'd stay where I was. But now we both live in the same place and I'm scared to do anything about it.
I don't want to screw things up and I REALLY don't wanna get rejected by him, I don't think I'd take it too well.

Then again Nothing Ventured Nothing Gained..

Talked to Emma today for almost an hour!
Felt good to hear her voice and it reminded me how much I miss having her around all the time xD
She's a big believer in me and the guy mentioned above (the one that moved and I'm scared to ask? out)
If Em were here I have no doubt that she would've pushed us together by now, sadly she's not here to do that so it's up to me (and we all know that nothing's gonna happen then, someone should threaten my life or something then maybe I'd do something)

I should totally grow a pair (and stop being a wuss!!)

Quote for the day was uttered by Usher
"No Risk, No Reward"
Wise words and I should definitely try living by them!

Much Love
//Alina

P.s If you read this (you, you know the guy I'm talking about) Part of me hopes you'll never see this the other's screaming at me to share the link so that you'd maybe see it but if you by any chance come across it and if you're interested in getting to know me more then give me a call or something? Let me know ok!