I've been in love, I've gotten my heart broken many times.
The most recent one was one of the worst so far, The whole situation was clear for a while. I liked him and from what I knew he liked me back, we went out to the bar where we danced and had so much fun :D
Once when we were out an older gentleman asked us several times if we were together, I told him that we were not because the boy thought that we should take it slow or something like that.
Well anyway, I fell so hard for this gorgeous charming boy. I couldn't stop thinking of him and whenever I did there was always a smile on my face.
He did have his faults but who in this world doesn't?
This story ends in tears and the unraveling started with him not answering my text.

I was on a internship on a ship, it was my last day before going on leave and I had planned on going out with a friend so I sent this boy a text that said something along the lines that I was coming home today, that I was going tot he bar with my friend and if he wanted to join us. No answer, so when I got home I was a bit angry and when we arrived at the bar I was ranting on how mad I was gonna be if he's here and hasn't bothered answering me.
I guess I said his name and that caught the attention of a woman beside me, Sadly I don't remember much of this conversation but my friend told me that we had discussed the boy.
Didn't think more of the incident until this woman started chatting with me on FB. She wanted to know what was going on between us, so I told her the truth; the was I saw it. I told her that we've been spending time together and that I like him.
Then she tells me that she's also been spending time with him, that he's slept over there several times (he's slept here on a few occasions tool).
I was so sad after hearing this, my heart was blown into smithereens, tears were cascading down my cheeks and I was violently shaking.

 Wow this sound so lame now looking back, but truth is I really liked this boy and I thought we had a connection but I was so wrong..
Now I haven't seen or heard from him after this and I'm not sure I want to. Sadly I can not escape him and i'll have to face him sooner or later since we go to the same school and we're both in the student organisation thing and we're currently planning an event for February...
But there's a possibility that this is a misunderstanding and I'm in the wrong here, but that doesn't mean that my feelings weren't true and the pain I felt after all of this was any less painful.
I was a mess for days, didn't feel like doing anything.
Oh how pathetic I was and my friends told me to get over it, that we weren't in a relationship so I shouldn't take it so hard. Easy to say, a bit harder to do.
To be honest I still hurt a little...

 Then there's all the other ones, boys who said they'd call but didn't, the ones who stopped answering after a while, the ones that only wanted one thing, the ones that used you, the boys who have girlfriends but neglect to tell you about them until after they have cheated and my fave; the boy who is just perfect for you but he's already taken.
Why is it so hard finding a decent man? Where are they all hiding...
So this was a bit random but I've decided that I'm gonna try and activate my blogging again and this is the first thing that popped up when I sat down with the computer.

Love to the world (even though I can't seem to find it for myself)
 //Alina

 P.s I'm never giving up on finding my prince charming, he's out there I know it!